Things have been going really well lately. Not a lot has happened; just going to school and hanging out with Jonny as much as possible. I spent Thanksgiving with his family, which was really nice because we got to spend all weekend together. It was also his birthday and I got him tickets to a Dallas Cowboys game, so in a few weeks, we are going to Dallas. We are both really excited. I dont have much else to say. Hope everything is going well with all!


Ciao!

10 days, 4 dates and 3 pounds

The past week has been absolutely crazy! In 10 days, I have gone on 4 dates with Jonny, met his Moms family, his Dad and Step Mom, lots of his friends and their wives or girlfriends, and have honestly had such a good time. I want to tell Amy thanks for letting me stay at her house. I kept her up late because she wanted to hear about my dates, and I think she was just as giddy as I was. I really like him. He is such a great guy, he is easy to talk to, has a great sense of humor, has amazing life goals, and most importantly he loves the church.

Weight Watchers has been great. I have lost 3 pounds this week and only have 5 more until my goal! I am really hungry all the time, but I can see the results so it is totally worth it. I know with the holiday season right around the corner, it is going to be a huge stuggle to not over indulge on candy!

Things have been really great lately. I dont think I have been this excited and giddy in a long time. As new things happen I will keep you posted!

Weight Watchers

Today, the diet begins. Not that I really need to lose weight, but I who doesn't want to be skinnier? My Aunt Carrie does WW online and has had great success, so I thought, "What the heck?" All you do is sign up, tell them your weight and height, and they tell you how many points you can have in a day. Sounds easy right? WRONG! Based on my weight and height, I can have 19 points a day and I have 35 "flex" points that you can use a week. So based on 19 points and eating healthy,lets say you have breakfast, a snack, lunch, a snack, and dinner (this is what they have on their website.) That means I can only have 3.8 points per each meal. Who can only eat 3.8 points? Not me!

So far today I have had 1/2 cup of cottage cheese= 2 points and one banana= 2 points. What in the world am I supposed to eat, if I have already eaten this many points. I now understand why people who use WW lose weight, they starve! I hope all you skinny people out there who are eating all those carbs enjoy them, one day they will catch up with you!

Finally! Something GREAT!

Life has been so busy lately. School is going really well, I am glad that the semester is almost over. I am ready for new classes and new people. Work is great! It is starting to get really busy, as people are ready to get on the slopes. I recently shot a commercial, so you may be seeing me on PCTV.

I was recently set up on a blind date, which is always great. Nothing better than two inept people going on a date seeing if there is a “spark.” So my beautiful cousin Amy called and said she had this gorgeous trendy guy to set me up with. I totally trusted her what is wrong with going on a date with a hot guy? Nothing! So the next day I get a phone call from hot Jonny and we make plans to go on a date and to bring a friend so it is less awkward. Everyday leading up to the date, I talk to hot Jonny so I already have an idea of who he is and what he is like. So Thursday night comes around and two strapping men come and pick Kelly and I up. They are both hot, especially my date! I had a really good time, and from what I have heard so did he. I will keep you posted on this!

Tori is doing really well in the NICU. It is so amazing to me how far a long she has come and progressed. I know that she has truly blessed my life, and has made me realize what is really important. I love my family more than anything. We are so blessed and I am so grateful.

Life couldnt be better! Have a great weekend!


Ciao Bella

Update..

On Saturday morning little Carter passed away. There was such a peacful feeling in the NICU as we sat there and held this little angel. We all knew that he had fought a good fight and was now back in his loving Heavenly Fathers arms. Little Tori is still continuing to fight. Today they took her off all of the medication and she was doing a lot better. The new doctor has hope that this little baby will live. They all decided that the best option would be to Life Flight her to Primary Childrens hospital to repair the hole in her heart. The doctor said that repairing the hole would make her fight easier and the swelling and blood on her brain will go down. We are all continuing to pray and have hope that this little angel will make it!

Gratitude

grat·i·tude (grăt'ĭ-tūd', -tyūd') n.

The state of being grateful; thankfulness.

This has been such a crazy week. On Wednesday my cousin had her babies at 24 weeks. They are so tiny. They are not expected to make it through the weekend. They are only 12 inches long and only weigh 1 pound 5 ounces. Seeing those little babies in the NICU broke my heart.



Seeing how much these little babies mean to me and my family helped put so many things into perspective for me. I realized how grateful I am for eternal families. I am grateful that my parents have made those covenants so we can be an eternal family. I am grateful for the priesthood and that those babies were able to get a name and a blessing. I am grateful for my family and for the strength and support that they show. I am grateful for the doctors and nurses for all there hard work. I am most grateful for my Heavenly Father and his greater plan for those babies.

I know that if those babies do not make it through the weekend that there are many lessons to learn. That they were able to help us understand that there is really a bigger plan in store for them, and that we need to have complete trust in the Lord. I am grateful that I will be able to one day see those babies again.

Please keep them in your prayers!

New Chapter...New Book

I found out on Friday that a certain someone had entered the MTC. I was honestly really happy to hear that. I was glad that he had overcome his trial and was able to go. Now in learning about this, I decided that I would email his mom and maybe try and gain some closure from this whole thing. It has been 8 months since I last had talked to her and I didnt have any idea what she was going to say. I didnt know if he had told her I was this horrible person, I didnt know what she thought about me. What did I have to lose though? Nothing! I emailed her and was really nervous to she what she was going to say back. Everything was really nice and from her kind words, I can honestly say that I feel ok about the whole thing. I know longer have to wonder about what happened to him.

I really feel that I have gained some closure on this whole thing. I dont need to hold onto the past any longer. He was really a great guy, I had lots of fun with him, and really enjoyed his family. I can now turn that chapter in my book and look forward to the new ones that are to come!

Random Thoughts..

Life is crazy. I really feel like I need to slow down. I feel like if I am always going that I accomplish a lot more. I always have to be doing something or else it will result in me wanting to do nothing at all. If my mind isn't occupied than I think to much about things I would like to forget. Why is the past so hard to forget. I used to be really good at letting things go. Just brushing them off and forgetting that they even happened. Lately every little thing has come back to haunt me, to remind me, not letting me forget. I want to be careless, carefree, and free willing like I used to be. They just cannot escape.

What do you think would happen if everyone in the world just disappeared so that they did not have to face their wrong doings? Do you think that everyone would just eventually become numb from being hurt? Would anyone really even care? Maybe that is what makes some people different than others. They are willing to face that they were wrong and actually stand up for what they did.

I guess I just need to realize that almost everyone is different that it.

Do you run away from things?

Do you have a hard time trusting?

What is holding you back from becoming who would like to be?

Snow in September...

As I was driving in the canyon to work; I noticed that as I got higher into the mountains it was snowing. Not just a few little flakes, but huge massive flakes and lots of them. I was thinking it is only September, it cannot start snowing now. If this continues we are going to have a long winter, which I am not looking forward to. Who wants to watch football games in the snow? Who likes when there is snow on Halloween? Not me! I hate it. Why do I live in Utah when I hate the snow. We have probably have 4 months of snow and I enjoy probably only the first day of it. It has just barely started and I am ready for it to go away!


* This is what I drove to work in!

Weber State...Great Great Great!

I am passionate about football. The obsession started in high school when I performed at the half times and had friends who were on the team. I never missed a game. My parents had reserved seating even after I graduated so we could have decent seats at the games. I love everything about the games; from the kids with painted faces, drinking hot chocolate, watching the cheerleaders and dancers, and of course the hot football players.

One of my really good friends is the punter for Weber State. He is really amazing. I used to go to the game in high school just to watch him, not only because he was good, but I kinda had a crush on him. So he invited me to their first home game of the season, so I grabbed my sister and we went to the game. It was so much fun, we braved the pooring rain, and freezing cold temperatures. Even though they lost it was still really fun to see him play again.

I cant wait until their next home game to go watch him again. We had such a good time, and I think next year I am going to buy season tickets!

Running...

I hate to run. I think it is torture. I haven't gone running since I was on the high school drill team, which was a long time ago. I have come to the conclusion that I dont like it because nothing about it entertains me. I am all for taking an aerobics class where you can laugh at all the uncoordinated ladies and the teacher in her spandex and thong leotard. Running on the other hand..BORING... So I have noticed lately that I have gained a little weight, not a lot, but I can certainly tell. It has all gone to my boobs. They are almost the same size as my mom who is HUGE..haha. I had to go buy a new bra because before I was overflowing. So tonight I went and worked out. It was actually refreshing for once. I think that I will make it a new habit. I really just dont want my big boobs anymore. I am going to try any talk my mom into coming with me next time. Hopefully she will come because I am certain it will make it her feel better.

* just so you know I have always wanted bigger boobs, but once you have them they are just a pain like everyone says!

100 Things About Me!

I have seen this done on many blogs and think it is a great way for people to get to know eachother. So here you go, 100 random facts about me!

1. I spent my summers as a child at my grandma’s framing shop and loved it.
2. I loved Bubble Gum Cigarettes
3. I love Carbs- i.e. pasta, bread, potatoes
4. I hate Meat
5. I have only had two jobs in my life and don’t want anymore
6. I start a new diet every week
7. I was on the dance team in high school, and have danced my whole life
8. I love getting together with my extended family. I have the best cousins and they have great spouses and children.
9. I love Lake Lyman. Go camping here every October with the whole Peterson family.
10. My Grandpa Peterson tells the best stories of him and his friends.
11. Family is the most important thing to me

12. I have the most awesome friends.
13. I love my church!
14. I want a motorcycle- or just some hot guy to take me on a ride!
15. The Fall is my favorite time of year. I love when the trees turn colors.
16. My Parents are seriously the best. No Joke.
17. I love being the oldest.
18. My sisters are my best friends

19. I want to be well traveled. I know I will be.
20. I am majoring in History.
21. I will one day own a Villa in Italy. Where there will be a white pebble drive lined with green Cyprus Trees.-haha its good to dream right?
22. In my next life, I want to be a Bounty Hunter or and FBI Agent.
23. I had to wear a neck brace for 10 weeks. I even had to wear it to graduation.
24. Dr. Pepper= Life
25. I love to have/ plan parties.
26. I love shoes. They never get to small like the rest of my clothes.
27. If I didn’t want to have a family, I would go to medical school and become and ER Physician.
28. I love books. I want to someday have an extensive library.
29. I am really shy until I feel like I can trust you.
30. I hate wrinkly sheets, so I iron them.
31. One day when I own a house it will look like the Pottery Barn catalog.
32. I love to shop when I have lots of money to spend.
33. I know every word to every Garth Brooks song. Thank Dad!
34. I can’t marry someone who doesn’t play baseball or basketball. It is a must being married to a Peterson.
35. I love watching football.
36. I want to be a trendy mom.
37. I love to go boating, but suck at wakeboarding and skiing.
38. I love makeup from Sephora
39. I like to keep up on all the Hollywood Gossip.
40. I try to be a good role model for my sisters.
41. I love to take pictures. They are great memories.
42. I just got a new Blackberry Pearl and love it!
43. I hope I will one day be as successful as my parents.
44. My clothes have to be color coordinated.
45. My jeans are done by the color of the wash.
46. I have recently become a fan of Designer Jeans. They honestly fit better.
47. I love all kinds of cheese
48. I am always on time, if not 5 minutes early
49. My dream car is a black Range Rover with huge wheels
50. When I was younger my mom would send me to Las Vegas alone for dance.
51. Because of dance I have been able to train with some awesome people: Wade Robson, Mia Michaels- from So You Think You Can Dance, and so many others.
52. I also got to travel a lot for dance.
53. I work at an awesome place where I get to go golfing for free.
54. I hate to golf.
55. I love candles and have them all over my room.
56. In college, I was known as the mother. I kept all my partying roommates in line.
57. I love the mountains and can’t imagine not living near them
58. I love flying on airplanes. It is such a good feeling knowing that you are that much closer to your vacation.
59. I love music- all kinds.
60. I love to cook and entertain
61. When I was in Elementary I used to wear curlers in my hair to school for dance competitions.
62. I love soup and salad from Zuppas.
63. I think getting hit on by guys is completely tacky.
64. I wear high heels almost every day.
65. I love sending packages to Missionaries.
66. I love shopping at Target.
67. I hate surprises
68. I have been going on the same hike for Easter with family for years.
69. The Peterson family is really active. Always playing games like baseball, basketball,and we even play night games.

70. When I was little my Grandma taught me how to play Boggle and Yahtzee.
71. Twin Pops is what my Grandpa keeps for us as treats.
72. I love going to the movies. I get it from my mom.
73. I love fresh flowers
74. I am running out of ideas…
75. I love to go horse back riding.
76. I can’t wear fingernail polish. I just pick it off.
77. I have a really bad short term memory.
78. I would love to teach dance, but am way too afraid of what people think.
79. I love to spoil my sisters and cousins (only Janie and Josh)
80. I love to play with Lincoln Logs; they bring me back to my childhood.
81. I love to go out to eat
82. Dutch Oven cooking is my favorite
83. I love Disney Movies
84. I want to get married in the San Diego Temple

85. I want to someday teach High School
86. Halloween is my favorite holiday.
87. I love to watch the Food Network
88. I love having a magazine subscription to any magazine
89. I love Ebay
90. I am a really good public speaker
91. When I was in Young Women’s, I gave a talk in Sacrament meeting about every 3-4 months because everyone else would say no.
92. I am also too cold.
93. I love my parents’ big fireplace.
94. I have really bad arthritis in my neck.
95. I love fresh ripe strawberries
96. I would like to be able to live more in the moment rather than in the past or the future.
97. I already know what I am going to name my kids. I won’t tell because I have too many cousins and names are starting to get used for the second time around!
98. I have locked myself out on a deck and had to jump down like 15 feet..haha in a skirt!
99. I am a really fast learner.
100. It only took me 4 hours to do this. haha

Changing the world..

When I was young and free and my imagination had no limits, I dreamed of changing the world… As I grew older and wiser, I realized the word would not change… and I decided to shorten my sights, somewhat and change only my country, but it too seemed immovable.. As I entered my twilight years, in one last desperate attempt, I sought to change only my family, those closest to me, but alas they would have none of it. And now here I lie on my death bed and realize that if only I’d changed myself first, then by example I may have influenced my family, and with their encouragement and support. I may have bettered my country, and who knows, I may have changed the world.- Unknown

Struggling

I can no longer lie.. I have been struggling for awhile now. I hate that this is already starting. I see the way it affects the people around me, and I do not want to be like them. If only I could forgive. I dont want to though. I think of all the mean horrible things that happened. The lies that were told, the things that were said, and then the disappearing act. This has all caused me to pull away from everyone. I no longer trust anyone. I do not want to open myself up again for fearing this will happen again. How can one person be so cruel? So selfish? So prideful? I dont blame him, I wouldnt want to face the fact that everything was a lie, and all a secret.

You tore me down to nothing. I was left standing alone; trying to pick up the pieces and fit them all together. Everything all started to make sense. I could see why my friends didnt like you, I can see why you thought you were this most righteous person, and most of all I can see why you tried to change everything about me. It was all because you didnt want me to find out who you really were. Thanks to you, I know see that you are missing out on a really great girl (if you would have only noticed), I totally deserve someone better than you, and most of all to trust those around me, for they see when my judgement is blind.

It is just going to take some time for me to forgive. And until then, I will be in my hole, not coming out until I am ready to face the light. If only he could see what he is missing out on. Thanks to you, I learned who I do not want to be with. I am glad I found out before I was more deceived. Thanks, Thanks for being an ass. It has taught me a lot!

Friends

I have the most amazing friends. They are all such great examples to me. We have gone through some really tough times and have had some really great experiences together. We have some fun memories of going boating, camping, random road trips, and the most recent of memories our friend Alexis getting baptized a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

Being able to be a part of her special day will always hold a really special place in my heart! I was her roommate in our first year of college. My other roommate and I tried really hard to be good examples to her, since we wanted her to know that even without our parents influence that we loved the church with all of our hearts. I will never forget the day she told all of us that she had been taking the discussions and wanted to get baptized. My heart was filled with so much joy, as I knew that she would be blessed greatly. She asked to start a fast so that her families hearts would be soften, as they are strong member of their Baptist church.

On July 7, 2007 she was baptized. It remember thinking that I wished I remembered my baptism day. I knew that my friends would remember this special day forever. We had all tried to be good example to her for many years. The spirit was so strong during the talks some of my friends gave and when the Mission President and his wife bore their testimonies, I knew with full conviction that the church is so true.

My New Life Motto.. Enjoy!

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks you heart, forgive them. For they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it!

Vulnerable

There comes a time when you must stand alone.
You must feel confident enough within yourself to follow your own dreams.
You must be willing to make sacrifices.
You must be capable of changing and rearranging your priorities so that your final goal can be achieved.
Sometimes, familiarity and comfort need to be challenged.
There are times when you must take a few extra chances and create your own realities.
Be strong enough to at least try to make your life better.
Be confident enough that you won't settle for a compromise just to get by.
Appreciate yourself by allowing yourself the opportunities to grow, develop, and find your true sense of purpose in this life.
Don't stand in someone else's shadow when it's your sunlight that should lead the way.

I am staring a new journey, down a new path. Nothing seems familiar and I am completely ok with that. I have never felt so vulnerable to new things. New things are coming my way. I am starting a new job, going to a new school, having to make new friends, and start being responsible for my own finances. I am hoping that as I start this journey that my vulnerability will slowly fade away.